We recieved our wedding album and canvas in the post on Thrusday it looks great.

I had a bad night Thursday night, I really couldn't settle so ended up reading my book till early hours of the morning. I also had thoughts of running away. I have no idea why I love my family so much I'd hate to leave them.

I started off feeling dodgy yesterday I think my bad night unsettled me but as the day went on I managed to pull myself out of it. We went to Waitrose in the afternoon to spend the £75 of supercheques Tony got from work. By the time we got home I felt much better so in the evening we went to the slimming world Christmas party.

Wendy's daughter Jen came to babysit little man for us. I had to go home briefly at the beghinning of the night as Jonathan was sick and really screaming but thankfully once I had changed his sleeping bag and given him cuddles he settled down OK and we ended out till gone 11pm. Not bad for someone who wasn't sure if I could face it.